Today, I am treating this blog post as I would a public journal. Relaying my thoughts, moods, and experiences of the last little while. This may not be to the benefit of my SEO or in attracting traffic to my website. On the other hand it is quite beneficial to me as a blog- writer as I am showing a level of authenticity and perhaps vulnerability. Two qualities essential not only in writing but in attracting an audience. I also believe in sharing the truest forms of being human and cutting away at any surface-level stuff.
Enjoy Your Youth
Since living in Munich I have dedicated the large majority of my Sundays in spending quality time with my Oma (Grandma). It’s a day I do not take for granted as I realize I am one of the luckier early thirty-year-olds that gets to spend this much time with a Grandparent. Some Sundays are breezier than others – sipping Prosecco at noon while chatting about this and that. Eating cake after lunch, as many Germans do. The shadowier Sundays though, can sometimes feel rather gloomy. If you have spent a significant amount of time with an elder you will understand that there are moments that really bring down your mood. Their youth has faded and in its place comes ailments and immobilities of varying degrees. For me though, I take the gloomy feel and transmute it into sheer appreciation for my present youth and vitality. Like, genuine admiration and thankfulness! Many go to church on Sunday and I spend the day with my Oma as that has become my spiritual experience in a sense. Spend time with someone more than half-a-century older than you and you will understand.
A caveat to add here is that yes, youth (however some might argue only physically) fades however beauty does not. My Grandma will be 90 next year and she still holds so much elegance. The beauty standard has drilled into our minds that youth and beauty go hand in hand. Once the former is gone the latter follows. This is a complete fallacy. One of my favourite scenes in a movie is from The Barbie Movie (no shocker there if you know me), when Barbie enters The Real World and sees an elderly woman for the first time.
Barbie: you’re so beautiful.
Elderly Woman: I know it!
That interaction has me tearing up and I’m not one to cry in movies, not even The Notebook. However, My Octopus Teacher did have me crying a river.
Cocoon Season
The past few weeks I have spent a significant amount of time by myself. It has been good for me even on those days where a sense of loneliness or dare I say, boredom creeps in. I recently came across the term cocooning season which implies exactly what you might think – retreating at home by spending time in solitude by oneself. Why might one cocoon? Speaking for myself, I currently have a wave of ideas and goals rushing into my mind and in order to realize their fruition I need to turn on my introverted side to remain focused. I read once, that something that is in growth mode needs plenty of space for stillness. This feels true for myself plus it’s Pisces season which always calls for retreat. Come Aries season I am in energizer bunny mode.
Dancing
Last Friday night, I pulled myself out of my proverbial cocoon and went to a new techno club with my friends and it felt great! Once you get bitten by the techno bug there is no way of going back to mainstream clubbing. Top 40 is all I used to listen to and now I don’t even know how to move by body when I listen to it?! The rave season hits different. No matter what country, I have up until now, experienced the world of techno in the mentality was almost all the same – respect, take care of and have fun with each other by spreading nothing less than positivity.
Being on a dance floor allowing my body to flow to the sounds of the music, feeling the beat meet my pulse, and the synthesizers awakening my senses is a state of bliss I cannot accurately put into words. Some DJ’s actually hold Goddess and God like powers.
So there you have it! A small glimpse into my world at the moment. If you have taken the time to read till here, you are awesome and you are beautiful no matter your chronological age. And I really appreciate you reading my words, it means a lot as an aspiring writer/blogger.
P.S. if you haven’t seem The Barbie Movie or My Octopus Teacher yet GO WATCH IT!!
Thanks for reading! xo
